My Monster
so many days i can’t stop myself
from fighting this monster that eats me alive
so many times i have fought and i’ve tried
to live for a moment without fearing my mind
i hate this yet live this and its bringing me down
i feel like i’m standing on uneven ground
the balance to life has been skewered so violent
i’m so sick of this death instinct silence
eat me alive from within to the shell
i’ve been living a lie and i’m living in hell
there’s a way out
there’s a way out
so despondant and somber so livid so frail
so scared to begin for the fear i will fail
i’m so alone in this pattern and i can’t call for grace
i’m left in this mess that is such a disgrace
i fear for my mind more than i fear for my life
the one thing worth saving the love i deny
for i feel so hollow and i yearn to relent
the control for some peace and free of this torment
