The Penitent

I was in some bad (seemed to be, i was feeling a bit on edge in the dream) part of NYC and it was all empty… very gray… no people around… really windy and not cold but just GRIM. I had the feeling I was lost and trying to find my way to who-knows-where.

So I’m walking down this street with buildings on each side, some boarded up, some dilapidated, all really GRAY.. so fucking depressing… then I see this creature run towards me, some sort of dog thing, it’s head seemed shoved into it’s body… and it was pushing this kitten around with it’s head… like a soccer ball.. (hey don’t ask me why my head had these weird images, like I can help that)

and I walk up to this thing because it looks like to be in actual pain… and it’s a large dog, a german shepard… and it’s head was twisted around completely.. by it’s neck… like someone had just taken it’s poor little head and gave it a 360.

and this man walks out from who knows where (in my dream he was faceless) and says to me that this dog’s trying to get a new head, and he doesn’t know what he’s doing, and he’s trying to get a new head from this kitten he’s pushing around.. like the dog think he can use the kitten as a head…
but the dog doesn’t know that it’s a kitten and he is a little confused right then because his head’s been fucked up

in my dream it seemed like a perfectly normal explanation. of course! giant german shepherd with it’s neck broken and twisted pushing around a kitten that’s not running away! gee whiz!

so anyway i walk up to the kitten and gently pick it up and remove it and put it on the side of the street where it’s safer, and i walk up to the german shepherd and real quietly and softly put my arms around him and said ‘it’s going to be OK, don’t you worry, calm down’. and i remembering feeling this awful cringing feeling in my dream as i grabbed it’s head as gently as i could and twisted it back around…
then i said to the dog ’see you don’t need a new head, you have one right here, it was just a little mixed up, you’ll be ok now’ and gave him a doggy pat on the head and walked away.

then i think the dream cut in somewhere else and i was checking my email and got an email from someone i never hope to see again in my life saying they would be in town and they were going to find me… that’s when i woke up…