written under the influence of being awake.
so this simple life has just turned upside down and the days i knew to come so fast have turned right back around. to the one that thinks they know me knows nothing what they had in mind, and the one that pushed me to this edge has left me far behind (thank you, amen) i want this moment etched in time, all the prior days can die, i never felt so hopeless and amazed at the same time.
i want my head held under water or in your arms all the same
i seek the comfort and the warmth just as long as i am safe.
when no race is to be won, i still hurry as there’s no tomorrow yet if i could pause this moment i would borrow just another slice of time in this span of minutes lasting seconds lasting hours in a frame of mind, rewind
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my dreams lately are not so much disturbing as much as confusing. waking up not totally sure what’s going on around me. and not sure why they’re happening. lots of running around hotels lost and searching. these are typical. finally i looked it up and it’s weird.
ok:?
Hotel
To see a hotel in your dream, signifies a new state of mind or a shift in personal identity. You need to move away from your old habits and old way of thinking. Or you feel the need to temporarily escape from your daily life.
that doesn’t really tell me much. but mostly i’m in a HUGE hotel. i’m wandering the hallways and floors via stairwells. it’s dingy and dark most of the time. the place is always empty, like i’m the only one in the building. it’s a bit unnerving.
i’m tired.
