malaise.
common sense has not served me well and i’m drifting further down to my hell
such self-imposed dark lunacy
i can’t stop this from happening
save my salvation
save me from pity
i don’t want compassion
but i need understanding
these words come not easy
but i’m down on my knees
don’t forgive me, don’t leave me
for i’ve done nothing wrong
my only friend here has turned out to be a familiar monster who
has betrayed me
so tempting and vicious
so kind and malicious
his hidden intent has made an attempt on my life
which is empty and hollow
my life
how many lies can i swallow?
my life
has lost the glamour and bright days
my life
is marked by malaise
Run
I’m making most of what I can
Though every day has worn me thin
So tired and restless I can’t give up now
But only for you I choose to go on
I want your eyes in line with mine
And your arms to hold me away from harm
I’m so tired and I can’t push uphill these days
Please let me settle down and drift
If I can’t please you and if I cause hurt
And if I deceive you by any means
Please let me go and move away from my world
Even to mean well can put tears in my eyes
So, how can I go on and go on and go on?
Where can I run and where can I hide?
Where can I find new excuses untried?
When will you find me and when will you see?
When can you forgive me for being so weak?
This life doesn’t matter without you in my life
And I’m sorry for pushing you so far away
I was scared you would hurt me
I was scared you would leave
And I’ve just fulfilled my own prophecy.
