The Penitent

as i drift far down below
to dreams of dying and regret
to never wake in tear again
to never wake to love again
as i drift far down beneath
the shadows of all doubt
to never feel the pain again
to never feel the pain again
life shuts down with thoughts of you
no pictures in my mind
my life is nothing without you
with nothing left to hold

i rise again and fight this day
of emptiness

for all it’s worth it had no meaning
i never want to feel again

i run away
i run away
i don’t want to face this day
i run away
i hide in shame
i don’t want to live this way
i run away
i run away
i don’t want to face this day
i run away
i hide in shame
i don’t want to feel this way

i run away
i don’t want to face this day
i run away
i hide in shame
i don’t want to live this way

i wanna dig a great big hole
deep down in the ground
and crawl inside with you
i wanna crawl inside with you
i wanna crawl amongst the leaves
i wanna crawl on hands and knees
i wanna inside with you

let’s escape down underground
and live together safe and sound
let’s pack ourselves away forever
the tie that binds will never sever

will you run away with me
let’s escape and let’s be free
you are the sweetest thing i’ve found
i want to live forever bound

let’s escape down underground
and live together safe and sound
let’s pack ourselves away forever
the tie that binds will never sever

something for your mind
your heart and soul
i want to know what
makes you happy
what makes you sad
what makes you sigh
what makes you cry
and we talked, we talked
for just a moment in time
i enjoyed the talk
i enjoyed the walk…
i am blessed for that moment in time
and i question, why him?
when others pass through my life each day
why him?
i want to know everything about you
i want to know your hopes
i want to know your fears
i want to know what makes you laugh
i want to know what causes tears
i want to know what you love
i want to know what you hate
i want to know what you want me to do
i want to know everything
about
you.

Does it really matter what i feel
When i shove it down inside
Does it really matter if i care
When no life’s behind these eyes

Of mine
Of mine..

It never mattered what i felt
I kept it hidden all along
It never mattered if i cared
No life will ever shine again

Again
Again…

I never mattered much to you
I always thought you cared
Does it matter anymore
I could have been happy

I could have been so happy

I never mattered, i never cared

This is worthless
This is hopeless
You never cared
You never will

You never will

Cease to love
And seas of hate
I bear the cross of
Years of pain
I bear the cross

Hope has given way to tears
Drown your sorrows and your fears
Hope has given way to hell
All that lies beneath as well

You were a man so strong and bold
Weakness made you empty, cold
You were a man who fought his heart
Poison love your last resort

Follow what your will desires
Pay heed to the inner fire
Passion burns behind those eyes
Windows to the world inside

You hurt, you grieve
You numb the pain
You want to stop these waking dreams

You hate, you want
To numb it all
I’ll catch you before you fall

my heart sings with joyful things
with you existing in my realm
my mind is captured and enraptured
you, a present to the world

and side by side or miles apart..

and side by side or miles apart
thanks for being who you are
you are beauty as i define
flawless, perfect in my mind

and side by side or miles apart
thanks for being who you are
you are beauty as i define
flawless, perfect in my mind

and this may make no sense
but i have no regrets
and this may make no sense
but i know i’ve no regrets
this is for you, my kindred soul

i adore you

i cherish you